ITS NOT ENOUGH TO AIM. YOU MUST ALSO HIT!

Mum said as a child I never crawled. She said i was sitting, then I was standing and then I walked.
Mum said as a child I didn't talk. She said I watched people all the time, I talked jibberish for a month and then I talked proper sentences. My first sentence was "Auntie 4, I want some milk Auntie 4." in vietnamese obviously.
I use to sit infront of the toilet waiting for my brothers to finish so that I can go pee in the morning (at the age of 2 or 3, i rememeber this), and they'd pee standing up, so thats how i thought I had to pee. So I peed standing up until I was 7 until my mum caught me one day and asked me what I was doing.

what were your first steps and words like?

I feel sick! All I can talk about these days are about relationships. But those are the interesting things in life. You can chose not to read if you like though.

I'm sitting at uni late trying to study personal finance so I can impress him. lol this may just be my silly little infatuation but, HEY! i'm studying! wow! And i'm actually understanding! wow! Anyway, yeah... so.... but I can't help looking at my mobile once in a while hoping that Mr. F messages me. WTF is wrong with me? I know that Mr. F is free now, so I'm expecting him to see me, but I'm not going to see him by the looks of it. i'm silly.
No more guys for me from now on, only D and if D isn't available I'll have to just wait until another one just as good comes along. He might not be like D but he makes me feel good none the less. No-one else is worth it anymore, as in flings. But i'm gonna be devastated for a while when I find out I can't have anything with D. But life moves on, and there should be someone with just as many or more ticks in my heart. (hope I don't lapse, i've figured that i have a very weak will when it comes to guys)
My heart is sweet, I need someone to help me keep it sweet instead of tainting it the way I have been.
(p.s. just found out that he does have a gf)

5 things I miss about being in LOVE

1. The unconditional giving and receiving of actions and behaviours one provides for another in hope that your gestures will make that person’s life just that much easier.
   (Oh! - for you guys out there – when a chic is angry in either case at you or at someone/something or both, you should hold her, and don’t let go until she’s not angry anymore. Actually, don’t let go at all just hold her as long as you can, well at least until you can’t stand the pain of her biting you.)
2. Making love. (enough said)
3. The escape route, feeling that the world is only the two of you together.
4. The look… you know that look. Its that look you get when he sees you from far away...
5. The freedom of love, where it makes you feel like your heart melts and then floats outside of your body and expand like an epidemic through the world and you feel that everyone else should be loved and love another the way that I do. The possibilities! (he doesn't have to be there for this one)

Puppy Love

1st year uni I met this guy which we will identify as 'D' and I thought he was really cute.
But I never tried to do anything with it - I didn't want to. Why?

He's a friend of a friend.
He was a taski in high school.
He's studying Commerce/Law (addy you might know him, call me ASAP!!!!)
He's an oldest child so he should to be very caring.
He's got dimples!! Dimples are a really big thing for me.
He seems quite shy as well.

And today i had to go to another tute to make up for not going before (i'm naughty) Anyway I rock up and he's the tutor. "my heart is jumping out" He smiles at me in recognition, and there's butterflies in my stomache, a constant shy smile on my face which i don't want him to see.

*puft*
All my confusion from Mr. F and heartache from Y disappear.
*puft*

I'm going to marry this guy. This is my love at first sight. Well I don't love him but I really really REALLY REALLY like him. But then I don't know anything about him. Well I actually do, coz i've been to his house. They wind the clock forward by 15 mins to make sure they don't go anywhere late. His mother is an optimitrist. He's CBA (i think) or at least he has the syptoms of one. He seems shy, gentle, but funny

he gave the example in class:
"if you bought a refridgerator for $1000
and the current market value of the fridge is $100
Which type of insurance would pay you $1000 and $100. And the choices are indemnity insurance and replacement insurace"

and then he adds, he adds:
"yeah.... just in case someone steals the fridge"
and he says it with a straight face and *blushes * a bit and then smiles and my heart just melts thinking about him like that right now.

What should I do? how should I woo him?
what if he has a gf? If he has a gf, I reckon i should ruin their happy home! I'm gonna be a home wrecker, coz i'm worth soooooo much more to be with! (even though I don't know who she is) But then she might be awesome, that's why he is with her. :( And i have a rule about being a homewrecker, i'm not going to be one. :'(
I'm just gonna assume that he doesn't have a gf coz then it would be perfect! (i'm praying to god right now!)
What type of girl does he like? I can't change myself, then it won't be me that he is liking. Does he like girly girls? how do I get his attention? He didn't say bye to me when I left. He wasn't eager. But then he was helping a student. Maybe a look up and wave?
Should I go back to his tute next week same time?
or should I wait a fortnight before I come back so then it looks more convienient?
Should I slip him a note after class with my number on it with an explanation of my undying affection for this man? I'll do that in the very last tute for the semester if nothing ever happens from now until then.
Should i study really hard so that I can ask him questions and ask for help? Would it be a turn on if i'm smart? Coz he's a smart guy right?
Next time I see him, i'm gonna stick a post-it on his back that says "MINE!". I don't think that would be too much right? As long as he doesnt know who put it there.
omg... i shoulds top rambling on. coz i can just go on for days...

Character Building

When a baby falls over from learning to walk, (s)he:

a) wails and cries and asks for attention
b) lies there stunned and awaits
c) gets back up and try again
d) sits up and just sits

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Something totally unrelated:
My dog think he's human. He wakes me up in the middle of the night and walks back to his bed, lies down. I walk away. He comes back to wake up, walks back to his bed. i look at him in his bed all shriveled up. Does this dog want me to put the blanket on him? I put some blankets on him and he uncurls. I go back to bed and don't hear from him again during the night.

... love you for your flaws

"That's who you are! You can't change it, it's you!" That's what I say to people, that's what I believe. I love you for your good attributes and your flaws and the inbetweens too. The flaws are what make you unique. Whatever you do, ur still you and you won't be going anywhere.

err... I have many flaws, and you do have ur bad days and good days, but I think i'm beautiful! And if you don't think i'm beautiful (it might be true that i'm not) then there's something wrong with you! And if you don't think you're beautiful then there's something wrong with that - coz i know u're awesome!

you feel good you look good.

Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - Cite This Source
beau·ti·ful /ˈbyutəfəl/
–adjective
1. having beauty; having qualities that give great pleasure or satisfaction to see, hear, think about, etc.; delighting the senses or mind: a beautiful dress; a beautiful speech.
2. excellent of its kind: a beautiful putt on the seventh hole; The chef served us a beautiful roast of beef.
3. wonderful; very pleasing or satisfying.
–noun
4. the concept of beauty (usually prec. by the).
5. (used with a plural verb) beautiful things or people collectively (usually prec. by the): the good and the beautiful.
6. the ideal of beauty (usually prec. by the): to strive to attain the beautiful.

American Heritage Dictionary - Cite This Source
beau·ty (byōō'tē) n. pl. beau·ties
1. The quality that gives pleasure to the mind or senses and is associated with such properties as harmony of form or color, excellence of artistry, truthfulness, and originality.
2. One that is beautiful, especially a beautiful woman.
3. A quality or feature that is most effective, gratifying, or telling: The beauty of the venture is that we stand to lose nothing.
4. An outstanding or conspicuous example: "Hammett's gun went off. The shot was a beauty, just slightly behind the eyes" (Lillian Hellman).

FREE

1. not restrained by authority or external forces.
2. without payment or charge
3. pertaining to or reserved for those who enjoy personal liberty
4. having immunity or being safe

-free
A suffix meaning not containing, as in "[sugar]-free [shit]"
--Heinemann Australian Dictionary--
--http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/free--

Free spirit
inclined to explore life and taste new experiences that hold true to the deepest parts of themselves versus being influenced by what the masses around them are doing. ~ think freely and have the courage to hear their own voice and follow their own integrity.
--http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Free_spirit--

nail polish

There's a saying:
"Nho co phai nho tan goc"
(u don't need to understand it but it's a saying none the less)

Nail polish makes ur nails stronger, more resilient, more beautiful. Nail polish takes quite some time to settle. The intoxicating liquid is easily scathed once it is laminated on the nails. Once the liquid does dry there is also a chance ur nails do not achieve the desired glossiness; you may have been too anxious and started to move around to early resulting in the matt finish. Although when you get it right – it’s AWESOME.
Pity this armour chips off gradually, day by day. You cannot just add a layer on top. Oh no NO! The precious coat(s) needs to be entirely removed and your nail rebuffed because the ridges from the base of your nails have just formed as the fingernail gains extra length.
Repeat until complacent.

Life is so intriguing.
Although I think the loss of life is much easier.

Did you know 1 in 4 pregnancies are miscarried? (I didn’t realize the stat is so high)

Do you people whom work with LIFE appreciate it more?
To be able to watch someone’s heart pulsing and calculating how to subject them to radiation etc…to bring a child into life. Is it not a miracle in your life everyday?
And yet, some have to dissect rats at the same to time – take a life to give a life.

A Day in Carolyn's Head

FUCK!
I did not want to see that message.
(Y messaged me but it wasn't to me it was to his gf)
YOu'd think I'd be over it but there is just still some little bit in my mind that still pisses me off. "THAT FUCKING DICKHEAD!!!" it screams. I guess being dumped is a lot harder to deal with then dumping someone else. Maybe i should be upset that i didn't fucking dump him first.
But that's anger, and it's not worth it. Fuck it. Its not worth my time thinking about it. I thought I was over all of it, but I'm not, how long does it take?

WALK AWAY AND DON'T LOOK BACK.

hours later:I was in love, but my love was not inspirational. I lost inspiration the day I gave him the scrapbook.
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ARe there set rules to follow?
Such things as no kissing, because kissing means that you like/love the person. It's an expression of interest that is beyound normal relationships.
What are the exact boundries between friends and the beyond friends point?
When is a relationship exclusive? I don't want Mr. F to have other relationships, but I think t'is perfectly fine for me to see other people. And yet i'm not really seeing other people. This grey area is really interesting(? is that the correct word).
Definition of my relationship with Mr. F_:
(*)friends with benefits
(*)not exclusive
(*)not boyfriend
(*)rebound -> does he know that and is he okay with that?
I consistently want to end this link I have with this person, the longer I'm in it, the longer it would be more difficult to remove? (its a questionable statement) Although its like a friendship, I was once great friends with L, but now we're no longer really friends. Would it fade slowly? How long will it take to fade? just go with the flow.
Can you continually just go with the flow in life?
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I'm reaching out.
I open my arms - I'm reaching out.
I'm reaching out for you.
Response.
What more can you ask for?