A Day in Carolyn's Head

FUCK!
I did not want to see that message.
(Y messaged me but it wasn't to me it was to his gf)
YOu'd think I'd be over it but there is just still some little bit in my mind that still pisses me off. "THAT FUCKING DICKHEAD!!!" it screams. I guess being dumped is a lot harder to deal with then dumping someone else. Maybe i should be upset that i didn't fucking dump him first.
But that's anger, and it's not worth it. Fuck it. Its not worth my time thinking about it. I thought I was over all of it, but I'm not, how long does it take?

WALK AWAY AND DON'T LOOK BACK.

hours later:I was in love, but my love was not inspirational. I lost inspiration the day I gave him the scrapbook.
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ARe there set rules to follow?
Such things as no kissing, because kissing means that you like/love the person. It's an expression of interest that is beyound normal relationships.
What are the exact boundries between friends and the beyond friends point?
When is a relationship exclusive? I don't want Mr. F to have other relationships, but I think t'is perfectly fine for me to see other people. And yet i'm not really seeing other people. This grey area is really interesting(? is that the correct word).
Definition of my relationship with Mr. F_:
(*)friends with benefits
(*)not exclusive
(*)not boyfriend
(*)rebound -> does he know that and is he okay with that?
I consistently want to end this link I have with this person, the longer I'm in it, the longer it would be more difficult to remove? (its a questionable statement) Although its like a friendship, I was once great friends with L, but now we're no longer really friends. Would it fade slowly? How long will it take to fade? just go with the flow.
Can you continually just go with the flow in life?
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I'm reaching out.
I open my arms - I'm reaching out.
I'm reaching out for you.
Response.
What more can you ask for?