A Decade Nearly Past

I read today that we should accept "wrongness" in our lives. It'll make us happier.

I look back at my posts 9 years ago and think how raw I was. 5 years have past. I've assumed many identities: a wife, a mother of 2, a home owner and numerous others. Made and maintained many friends and acquaintances. But somehow I had lost myself. I lost that freedom and gain this "understanding"  (if that's what I can call it) I've aged but am still young.

A lot happened in those unrecorded 5 years. But I just went through the motions I didn't live it! I was trying to but I didn't live it. And the reason for it was simply hormonal. I had baby brain, something I was never sure of. But today I know. I can see my brain trying to claw back what intelligence it once had. I can see my memory absorbing information in a new way. I can pull random memories out that I didn't know I had. All thanks to hormones.

It's almost like I went through puberty again but this time it was just hormones making my brain dull instead of curious/angry. I don't know how to explain it.

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